Here I am, running a fever of 38 degrees and home alone. Yup, that sinking feeling of loneliness has once again set in. Always reminds me of my aunt's story of how my worldly, strong cousin who went overseas to study by herself fell sick one day and broke down feeling extremely homesick. Yah, I can totally understand this feeling. For me, I know that my family will be back by night, what more being in a foreign country and sick and alone with no one to fuss over you?

How many more minutes to nighttime?

It's times like this that I yearn to have someone to call and complain of how horrible I'm feeling right now, that that someone will come visit me and give me a really big hug and tell me that everything's alright, and will fuss over me by taking my temperature, helping me fetch a glass of water when I'm feeling too weak to walk, and remind me of the time to take my medication (I always can't remember when was the last time I swallowed Panadol...).

Do allow me to whine a little while more...

Yup, that's right, being single in a generation of pairs can be pretty lonely in times like this. Ok, maybe the fever is not only making me lonely in the 'relationship' aspect, but also the stark realization of how few friends I have whom I can confide in, how I've been too introverted, painfully shy and lacking in intiative for my own good. I mean, I have close friends, really sweet friends, in fact, but, you know, I just dun think people can be that bothered to listen to how bad u've been feeling or how happy u've been and... ahhh, I think I'm contradicting myself. What am I talking about? Blame it on the fever...

That's where the blog comes in, I suppose. Unless u leave a message here, I can ramble on about nitty gritty, nonsensical stuff in my life and choose to be oblivious to the reactions of people reading it.

Hmmm... ok, better stop here. I know I'll be back to my old self once the fever subsides so no point blabbling on about how bad I feel, right? Haha... the wonders of the human body...


Is it just me or are my toes wrinkling up?

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