un pensamiento para ti...
"He aprendido que todo el mundo quiere vivir en la cima de la montaña, sin saber que la verdadera felicidad está en la forma de subir la escarpada. He aprendido que cuando un recién nacido aprieta con su pequeño puño, por vez primera, el dedo de su padre, lo tiene atrapado para siempre. He aprendido que un hombre sólo tiene derecho a mirar a otro hacia abajo, cuando ha de ayudarle a levantarse..."
~ Gabriel Garcia Marquez
I read this post by Funn on her website. Wanted really to say something in response to this, as I too have had similar feelings as she did regarding the issue on grief. In my training I have also learnt theories on how to handle feelings and thoughts in such situations and yet remain functional. However, I'm just to drain to think of anything to say.
Days have been long and busy lately. Projects just keep piling in for my job, and on top of that the play production is stressing me out too, as much as I hate to admit it. Deadlines are tight and the cast need much more practice than the time we have been given. The committee has been too complacent with their own deadlines that even till now, 2 months before the actual days, the tickets and posters aren't even out yet. The script is particularly knocking both Jimson and I unconscious as we find ourselves coming out with, discussing and operationalizing our own brand new philosophies about vfarious aspects of human nature. I have been staying back after work, either for rehearsals or script-writing, and Saturdays are taken up by either one of these, or by work. And after the script is done we have to finalize the lightings and costumes.
I'm brain dead. And I can feel a flu setting in...
There's one line, in a prayer in fact, that appeared in The Cider House Rules, and it is usually evoked whenever I'm feeling like this - "...when the day is hushed and the fever of life is over". The "fever of life". What an apt description.
So, I'm really sorry Funn. Perhaps one of you reading this would have something to say in response to her post that would be helpful?
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Stress???!!! Don't even talk about it. I've been stressed for months now. Work, work, work. Rush, rush, rush. Faster, faster, faster. It gets worst when every 5 minutes there is someone calling to rush you about getting their stuff done. Too much work, too little time and manpower. Every company wants to triple their profit but half their current staff. New hires are taught at start to pass on as much work as possible to people who are competent. And they are also taught to go up 3 layers of management above you if you even give a hint of not helping them. Never mind about saying "NO". Wait a minute???!!! I thought seniority is suppose to mean something??? I guess not anymore. *Sigh* I'm even afraid to answer the phone and look at my email box now.
Don't worry, we all feel the same.
Pearl, I have a question which you might be able to answer since you've taken psychology courses. I've noticed that a lot of people in my work place act really differently when they are at work than when they are off work. For example, people who you think are kind-hearted and polite at work but when you see them in say at a dinner party, they become drunkards who are rude and use a lot of course language. There was a time I was quite close to a female colleague (I'm female also) until once we went out to lunch together I couldn't believe hearing all the cursing she was making at people. Is it abnormal of me to expect people to have a decent and polite personality? Am I just too naive to know that a lot of people are really just acting nice at work? Am I just the weird one who acts the same at work and off work? I'm confused. Your comments are appreciated.
Thank you, yc. Your post was not lor soh at all la. :) You have mentioned many good points which at the moment of frustration and shock I have either overlooked or forgotten. Sometimes it takes another head to remind one to not always take things just on the surface. I feel a lot, lot better now. Thanks again.:
To yc: (Hope you are reading this.) I just finished reading the trip you had at " Aceh Build - Mike Team" blog. That was a very meaningful trip you guys had. Just a little side note on safety. Looking at some of your photos, I noticed that not everyone had glasses on. Remember to bring and wear safety goggles/glasses whenever you guys are working in this environment (even at home), okay?
Thank yc for helping me answer my's questions :)
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