I visited Funn's website and read this post of hers. I must admit I was shocked by Funn's post. I never knew that a personal grouse would lead to this.

First of all, from the bottom of my heart - thank you, especially all of you who have written notes of encouragement regarding my last post. I dunno how to describe this, but it's a mixture of feelings of happiness, sadness and guilt. Happiness, cos of all the encouragement that came out from that post; sadness, cos I feel I'm not worthy of all those praises; guilt, cos I'm starting to regret posting it up in the first place. Although the feedback wasn't much, I'm overwhelmed by it.

It may have been the exam stress, or it may have just been one of those days where I just felt that things just aren't going right at all.

Funn, thanks for your encouragement. I particularly liked that statement of yours - "if I didn't bother why should people bother on my behalf? Beauty starts with oneself. If you can't be convinced how beautiful you are, physically or otherwise, you can look like Angelina Jolie and no one can convince you you are gorgeous", because it's very true. Perhaps this is something I've always been looking for - that courage to be confident about myself, to trust in myself and my judgements about myself and others. It's difficult and I'm still learning. I haven't found it, though I should think that it's within my reach atfter all these years. It's just that sometimes, I simply lose it.

I'm feeling better now. Still fat, but at least I don't feel that bad about it ^^. Don't worry guys! However, thanks for thinking so well of me - "exotic features", "one of themost gracious person on the net"... wow... Though I'm really not worthy of that kind of praise, it is truely flattering, and it has certainly made my day.

So thank you! I really hope that one day, I can truely stand up tall and tell myself with confidence that "I am who I am", and learn to appreciate the good things about myself. That's the problem with Asians, I believe (though I'm sure it has been changing)... we have been habituated to focus on the bad side of life, to be harsh on ourselves when we make a mistake or when we don't perform up to a certain expectation that we, or the people around us, impose on ourselves. We must learn not only recognize and to learn from our mistakes, but also to appreciate the positive side of ourselves. This is something I will strive for, and that I hope whoever is reading this will remember it as well.

Before I end off, I will never be aneroxic. I love my food too much!! =P

Oh, and a last note, I'd really really appreciate that you leave your name somewhere in the comments instead of posting as anonymous. There's actually an option to include your name in the post but if u can find it, do just add it in the beginning or at the end of your post. Thanks a million!!

May everyone stay happy and healthy!