i look in the mirror and i see this...
What can I say? Formerly loose jeans getting tighter, going from a size M to size L, full of pimples on my face. And I'm putting back those 8 kilos I lost before.
I always try to say that body size is not everything and that society is putting way too much emphasis on being tall and slender and beautiful... But guess what? Even I can't escape this expectation. I would love very much to say that I am who I am and I shouldn't be bothered by how people judge me and what society perceives as the 'norm'. But obviously, I can't. Yes, I am one of those in the constant struggle to up keep the beauty standard of being slim (since I can't be tall...), and I'm getting depressed.
I think I just hate myself for not being disciplined enough, to eat too much and not exercise enough. I hate myself in the mirror. I hate the way I look now.
About Me
- Pearl
- Fat, love to eat, love to sleep, love movies and TV serials especially TVB, love animals especially my cats, love dancing though got poor coordination between my hands and legs, love theatre but no motvation to pursue it seriously, love to ramble yet have a very poor grasp of the English language - like what is happening now.
Favourite links
Wikipedia - use contents with caution
Internet Movie Database (IMDB) - All you need to know about movies
Love HK Film.com - All you need to know about Asian cinema
OchaCream - Shop online for handmade accessories
Birdsnestfern - Shop online for handmade accessories
A Little Bird Told Me - Shop online for handmade accessories
Point2Entertainment - Funn's blog and reviews
5 comments:
care for a few rounds of badminton n serious shopping? mwahaha.
chill gal. tok to u after exams =)
meanwhile, dun complain anymore about ur complexion or i m realli goig to bite u.
ex-loreal sin care advisor paw's diagnosis of pp's skin: the base is already good, occassional pimples are negligible, pp's features are unsingaporean (read:exotic), abyundance of eyebrows and eye lashes.
stop complaining!!!! *bah
HEY!!!!!!! Who said you could use MY photo?????
Hey gal...yeah. i share the same sentiments abt myself, particularly in the stressful period of the torturous exams, where i frequently resolve to using junk food therapy to relieve stress. *Sigh*
Don't worry, after the exams, go for a detox lor. At least you have your line-dancing to burn off calories. Heh, me planning to start my long long overdue yoga and aerobics after much procrastination.
Pearl, when I was having a major exam some years ago my face was somehow covered with painful red pimples. I doubt it was stress and the biggest stress was paying the dermatologist! It was hormonal stuff, in time my skin got better. During that time I wasn't very embarassed with how I looked though people were too polite to look at me you see. I didn't bother. I figured if I didn't bother why should people bother on my behalf? Beauty starts with oneself. If you can't be convinced how beautiful you are, physically or otherwise, you can look like ANgelina Jolie and no one can convince you you are gorgeous. Don't be depressed because you are making me, and the readers depressed. You're beautiful, in my opinion because I do think you're one of the most gracious person I have known on or off the internet. I always complained men are no longer chilvarous or women ladylike but you know what? I think you have got personality and I know this may sound cliche, I hope you may find comfort in my post when I say, looks may matter but at the end of the day an empty shell amounts to exactly that. You're gorgeous Pearl, like your name PEARL, shiny, white, expensive looking and best of all treasured by all.
in contrast to you, i enjoy being fat cuz life is short so i might as well live it in a relaxing way with all that food that i consume everyday for pleasure. i'm the kind of person who never go out so i only enjoy watching those tvb series and eating. i'm lazy and only enjoy being the potato couch i am cuz i like my life like that. laid back and all. well, i admit that i wear baggy clothes to cover up the fatness but still, most of the time, it doesn't seem to matter. no matter how much my family encourages me to eat less and exercise more, i don't want to. btw you're getting depressed over nothing. you're probably no where near being obesed and you shouldn't have to worry so much that you're getting fat cuz you're probably only average. it's normal. you wouldn't want to be anorexic, do ya? and be all skin and bones and looking starved. you're healthy, ok? got a lot of homework to do. that's all.
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